A very stressing, taxing and depressing week...

So I had an off-week last week...

Oh... I had this boardmate and we were like really close. He knows I like this girl, and then he was asking me a lot about his "supposed to be" intention of courting her. I was saying ok because it really is ok for me. I have no hard feelings but I was trying to kill my feelings for the girl.

Then just last week, we were in the bus, and this boardmate and another boardmate of mine were talking about that girl in a loud manner that they do not even know what I was feeling at that time. I was trying to kill my feelings for that girl to give way for my boardmate, because I know that the girl I like does not like me. Besides, it's obvious that she's attracted to my boardmate, too.

Going back with the incident, they were like talking about the girl too loud, they were like "What? You're going out with her?", "Seriously, I think she likes you!", "You got to put that on your schedule!"... I consequently left the bus and re-scheduled my ticket for the next day.

Then, a few days after, when they knew what my point was, they were like "I thought it was okay for you. Why did you acted that way?"... My answer : respect. I'm still in the verge of trying to knock off my love for the girl. It was just a single-day interval between the "said" courtship and the incident. I could not move on within a day. They treated me like I wasn't there. They've been oblivious with what I am feeling at that time... They acted like they were very mindless as if I was never serious with what I felt with that girl.

Until now, I'm not in good terms with that boardmate but I'm okay with the other one. I still don't know if that friendship we built before will come back once more. For now, don't count on it.